Keeping myself busy has always been important to me. As I have alluded to in previous posts, before I started vet school I hardly ever spent a winter vacation or spring break doing something other than working. Making money or getting veterinary experience was always my top priority. However, as our spring break approached this year, all I could think about was sleeping in and enjoying my time doing nothing.
Even so, I suppose I did not do “nothing” this spring break. Although my activity aspirations for this break were perhaps less than ideal, I did do a lot of self-reflection. During the school year, there is very little time to think about anything other than studying and eating. When there is a slight lull in the workload, I find myself zoning out with mindless television or video games. Just ask my roommates — if we don’t have an exam coming up, my Gameboy gets a serious amount of playtime. There is something comforting in sitting and trying to beat a trivial game after a lengthy stretch of exams. It relaxes me.
However, during that mindless break I hardly ever stop and just think: about my life, about my family, about my friends. Maybe that sounds terrible, but it can be true. Although this year I have vowed to keep relationships strong with both friends and family, it is amazing how quickly my relationship with myself can fall to the wayside.
There is something innately calming about reflecting on one’s life. Thinking about how relationships came to be, or the roles that certain people have in your life, or the role that you play in others’ lives…without sounding too existentialist, I really do enjoy some good quality self-reflection. After this week-long reprieve from school, in which I found myself delving deep into pensive reflection, I feel extremely refreshed. Almost refreshed enough to handle the next two months of school before my next reprieve!