We all have ’em. They’re part of who we are, and I think they add to our autonomy. Pastimes are important to periodically rejuvenate and remind us where we came from and where we are going. My favorite pastime is sipping a good cup of coffee and watching the sunrise.
Perhaps it’s the peaceful song of the birds or the amber light awakening my soul. Either way, the anxiety that I was feeling is absent at this time. This is my time to sit and ponder. This ritual adds direction to my day, and perhaps that’s what relaxes my mind. admit, once in a while it’s nice to ease into the day and consider what I would like to accomplish and prioritize. It’s far more preferable than adhering to a checklist of assignments.
You see, in essence I’m a nature enthusiast. Sometimes I need to sit and wonder about life outside the bounds of the institutionalized jungle that man has created. Perhaps this is my peaceful rebellion. And sometimes there are important questions to consider. Such as, are those birds speaking their own language? Something that I just cannot understand? But still I appreciate their music.
Which brings me to my next point: it’s okay to not always understand. Perhaps that’s what I’m so afraid of but am beginning to realize. We vet students task ourselves with knowing everything. But sometimes I feel I know so little. How will I shoulder the burden of my patient’s lives? Am I really holding myself to a fair standard?
Then it clicks. I may not always know the answer, but I do know who I want to be. I yearn to be the reassuring presence in a worried owner’s life. I want to be that healing hand to a pet. My goal is to proceed with honesty and integrity, and learn what I do not know. I aim to begin this day and every day earnestly, being frank with myself about the limitations of my skills and knowledge so that I might use them to make this world a better place. Now my initial worries have escaped me. The only thing that’s left is to set off in the direction I’ve chosen.